Trying Again

Why can't I write like the other members of my family. I don't see where I got some talent that they don't have but somehow my siblings are both able to write I however don't feel I write anything that people would really be interested or intrigued to read.

However I come here anyway to write to the air, since I don't know of anyone who stops to read here anyway.

I don't feel very happy, I don't think it's been all that long since I've been happy, but these bouts of sadness & frustration seem to come more and more often lately. I seem to only be able to see all the things that are not working out the way I want them to, and not finding the things that are working out "better" than I thought they would because they ended up different than I wanted.

If I'm honest, no I haven't been spending as much time in prayer and in the word as would be healthy for me spiritually and most likely physically. And is it awful to say I don't feel like it? I pray, I pray every day. I thank God for His provision and protection over our lives. But I don't feel anything, I find myself annoyed by so many things. Nothing seems to be going my way, I have been praying for quite a while that God would change the things I want for my life to the things He wants for my life, and I haven't seen or felt anything change. I've just found that I've become more frustrated.

Maybe I'll try again to give God the time He deserves in my life, I know things can only get better when I do that. We shall see if I fail at this again as I have every other time I've tried to spend more time with the Lord and do the things I know I'm supposed too...

Once a Month

Well it seems that that's how often I post here lately? I've been rather busy with going back to work...some church stuff, but mainly just normal church things nothing super new or special.

So work has been most of what my time has been spent doing, that and the two hours I spend each day driving...

I guess I'm feeling drained, and I don't really know what to do about that. I had a birthday, I'm officially a year older. I've been thinking I was 28 for quite a few months now, so I guess that's why it's not such a big deal, however it still feels weird to be 28 and to be where I am? I don't know where I want to be, but I look at others, others who are younger than I am and see the things that they have and I wonder why I am not where they are? But that's not the path God has for me so I must just continue, and pray I'm still on the path He has intended for me! Sometimes I wonder, and often I pray!

Thanks for checking in with my ramblings for tonight, we shall see if I have anything else profound to say this month, or if I continue my once per month postings...