Long time...

It's been quite a while since I updated my blog.

I have thought about coming on and updating several times but chose to go do something else instead :-(, so sorry to all of those *followers* out there...wait I don't have any that's right. I'm just talking to my self right now.

Okay back to the convo with the self....It's been a really busy month. We went on Vacation the first week in June, I taught summer school the second week, we went to youth camp the third week and I taught summer school last week. So I've kept busy this month.

I had an interview for a fifth grade position a few weeks ago, and they called back and let me know that they had hired someone else for the position. I wasn't surprised, a little dissapointed but I know God is in control so I am not really worried about it. I am hopeful that I will be able to interview for a kindergarden position at the beginning of July. The principal is out of town so I wait until she gets back to see if I'll hear anything about that.

Anyway, I am going to go for right now, and see what else I can organize...been on an organizing kick lately.

Talk with you later.

Busy, busy, busy...

That seems to be all that I can say about the last week. I can't believe it's only really been a week since my last blog entry. It feels as if it has been ever so much longer than that.

It really doesn't seem that I have accomplished much of real value, with how busy I have been. There are a few exceptions to that statement. Sunday was Pastor's appreciation at my church and I was able help with preparing that service and setting up the worship for Sunday. So that took quite a bit of my time and attention. I was able to arrange for the Pastor's daughter to come down from Prescott to surprise her parents. (She helped me lead worship)

And now I am preparing for service tonight, for the fourth of July celebration in the park, for camp, vacation (we leave Friday, I am very excited) and preparing for a trip to Italy in August. So I have a lot of things on my plate right now and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed.

I am trying to keep everything organized and work on one thing at once but it feels like it's a loosing battle? Well I must get back to some of the other productive things I must finish today...so I will sign of for right now and get back to work.

Thanks for reading

Beginning to Wonder if I care too much!

I'm beginning to wonder if I care to much, and if I do what I should do about this fact?

I feel that some teachers appreciate the fact that I care while others look down on me because of it? It's really starting to get to me. I think I need a few days off!

I'm torn because I want to come tomorrow and see the teacher who I have been subbing for this week and talk to him about the things that have happened this week and see his reactions? The other part of me doesn't want to know? See? Or hear what he says about me, and what they students say about me.

I'm at the end of my rope and not certain what to do I really just would like to say I have to go home today and just allow someone else to finish the day.

Having another sub say "Well they are not usually a problem for me" just makes me wonder what "I'm" doing wrong that they choose to misbehave for me and not for them? I feel like I'm rambling and saying the same thing over and over again, but I really don't know what to do?

I'm sorry to ramble so, but I don't think that anyone really reads this yet anyway...if you do feel free to pray and or comment I'd be happy to accept your prayers and thoughts.

Hope your having a great day!

My week so far...

So far this week has been the opposite of last weeks in reference to how bored I have been. Which is actually wonderful because I have things to do with what they students are needing to complete.

However yesterday was one of the worst days that I have had in quite a while! I actually almost melted into a puddle of tears in front of an entire class of 6th graders. They were just being......I don't even really know how to describe the way they were acting, it made me feel incompetent and like a complete failure. I am really hoping that they are able to change their behavior today because if they are unable to I have arranged with one of the 7th/8th teacher to come in and "take" part of the day for me. And that will be rather amusing because they will not be very happy with this outcome that they have arranged for themselves. *It makes me smile just to think about doing that to them*

On another note, I am trying to formulate an email to the HR person at the school I am working at right now about a *potential* position that may be available for next school year. And I am really struggling with the wording that I should use as not to sound completely desperate, but still making myself available for the position should it be available.

I really do not want to have to complete an application with another district, I would much prefer to stay here but I also don't want to be closed minded to what the Lord would have me to do. So here I sit trying to write this email and praying that the Lord will give me the words to say.

Thanks so much for reading *if anyone actually is* my worthless dribble....have a great day!

~*~Friday~*~

Well today is Friday...and I definately agree with the statement TGIF today!

I'm going to save this blog and publish it later this afternoon so I can write about my day, so I'll add time stamps to it for today.

9:32am
It's been a good week, but it's been somewhat boring the last few days. I'm still subbing for a Middle School computers class today and at the moment they are again working on a self contained project so there really isn't much for me to do. *Except remind them that they need to be working and getting their assignment done...which I've done several times and don't feel like repeating myself again.*

12:13pm
Well it's now afternoon and I have had a free period. I have another class coming in in approximately 10 minutes. Which will be another fun filled hour. Really my last few days here have in no way been bad, just somewhat boring. I've enjoyed having the time to think and reflect. *as well as the time to start this blog, and the other one that I started for Brent and I... http://pastorbandj.blogspot.com so you should check that out too.

12:27pm
I now have my 5th period class and today they've decided to try my patience and see what they can get away with. They will soon find out it's really not much. I hope they soon start listening to and following the directions I have given or it could be a rather unfortunate class period. Well I'm going to post this for today and we shall see if I edit to add anything profound at a later time today.

First Blog

Well here's my first go at a blog.

I've tried things such as this before and it's never gone very far, but since I am bored at the moment with nothing else to do...I'll explain more of where I am in a moment...I thought I would go ahead and start a blog.

Right now I am substituting in a Middleschool Computer's class and the students are all being self-managers, which in reality is what we would hope for them to do, however when you are a substitute it leaves one desiring a bit more to do.

I thought I had brought something to do today, however I seem to have left it at home as it is not here right now. So you get the joy of reading my first, of probably many, completely random ramblings about what I am or rather in this case, am not doing.

Thanks for reading and hope you enjoy your day!