So I've really been struggling with feelings of being alone, again. I think that I've allowed the Lord to work this out of me and then it happens again. It's a little hard to explain because its not that I dislike being alone, but at the same time I don't like being alone. I know a bit of circular logic there for you.
When it comes to being alone at home and getting things done or having some alone time. I'm ok with that for a little while, but then I would really rather be somewhere with people. However when it comes to having to go to an event alone, church, wedding, going away party...yeah I can't stand that. I hate feeling alone! I know I'm not alone I have people all around me, and I know God never leaves me or forsakes me, He's always here, and I feel real bad saying however....however why do I feel so alone?
Is it because I want children? Is it because I'm not trusting God? Why, why do I feel this way & why can't I learn this lesson?
It seems that I end up alone a lot, camp = I ended up working in the jobs that only one person had to do, events = brent has to work so I have to go alone and explain where he is :-( work = the only one of my grade level separated by distance and personality?
I really wonder why, what purpose does it serve? What am I supposed to learn? Lord please help me understand what I need to and just accept what I don't need to understand but I just need to accept.
Thanks for reading & for your prayers if your still reading...God bless
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